angel VS aiba

Laptop die yeah~~

Fri, 11 May 2007 08:03:35 GMT

Before i left for orchard, i wanna say..

Yeah my laptop is offically dead! *argh*

I feel like crying now. Actually i dun even feel like going out anymore. My laptop cant load into the window. *cries*

What to do now? My downloads, tons of downloads to be exact. Which i have yet to burn it out!

Damn it!! Super duper fed up now^&^!@*^@&!%@&*

wondering~~

Thu, 10 May 2007 17:16:29 GMT

Sometimes im just wondering, what are friends for??

rabu rabu AIBA MASAKI!!!

Wed, 09 May 2007 16:12:32 GMT

Have been so busy these few days. I think im dying of heat and stress soon. *cries* I swear i hate school, but i still wish to go japan for college studies. *smiles*

Oh that stupid advance mobcomp assigment, i have not start doing it yet. *argh* This semester seems so rush to me, even though there are lesser subjects to study on. *slap* I think it is because im too stupid la, that is why i cannot adapt to it.

Tery told me something. She wanted to study at japan college as well. *smiles* She told me about of details about that enrolment of scholarship. And i must must MUST make my GPA as good as possible for the last 3 semesters that i have left. So i will have higher chance to be accepted! *smiles* Tery We Can Make It!!! (^.^)

Okasan and Ojou confirmed going for 30sept ARASHI concert. Okasan is not able to help me get a ticket for it, because her friend together with another friend is going as well. One person can ballot for 4tickets. Im the 5th person so i cannot go. *cries and dies* Whatever!!! I did not really pin too much hopes on this time round concert as well. Because i am still not sure whether will my exam falls on that day anot.

But i told Okasan i dun care!!! For next year onward concert, im going for ALL concert!!! Okasan promise to bring me for every concert of ARASHI next time round. Cuz i said i die die oso wan attend all ARASHI concert yeah!!! *laughs* Who ask her to be my Okasan, no choice have to get bullied by her princess angel. *smiles* Who asked her to give me this nick 赤ん坊姫天使 (akanbou hime tenshi) and she have to suffer then.

Saw xianglin on the way to school. She is standing right in front of me (im sitting down on the bus) and i still never sees her. And end up continue closing my eyes wanna sleep. Then she wave her hand again then i realise hey it's her. We ended up chatting alot on the bus. And what makes me disgusted is, a stupid auntie stand beside me keep talking to US as well. *argh* See ghost..

Because traffic jam ma, then is like the bus moves very very slowly. Then that auntie at the side keep talking to us. Of course we ignore her and continue with our conversation. Then that auntie beside me keeps giving me that ugly gases from her mouth, so smelly!! *cries* Then i use my hand to cover my nose and i hint to xianglin that i cannot stand her.

Xianglin agrees that she is irritaing as well. Yeap she is damn damn irritating. I really wish to give her a slap on her face. Somemore her boob so big? Then keep leaning it on my hand. *yuck* So disgusting. Then she like keep hinting me to give my seat to her. She can stand, she is not old, she is not pregnant, SHE MAKES ME SICK!! Why should i give me seat to her? *laughs*

My latest nickname at MSN given by okasan: [AnGeLiNe] 毎日は相葉雅紀の日 || 相葉王子 VS 天使姫 || 赤ん坊姫天使. Cute right!! But the middle ones 相葉王子 VS 天使姫 is i asked okasan to type it out for me de. Since okasan said im princess, then i want masaki-baby to be prince then. So we can get married ever after ma. *laughs*

I asked kimi-chan to comment about my nickname. She says she totally agree with what okasan said about me. She said i behave like a kid and have a princess mood cuz i told her before that i do not wanna grow up? kimi-chan very afraid that will be angry and keep asking me not to be angry. But hey i love the way she explain and comment about my nick. It makes my nickname even more cute!! *cheers*

Tomorrow working 11am. From 9.30am change to 8am change to 11am. *argh* Whatever. That mean i can sleep longer? Wahaha!! And i have to save my energy for tomorrow night to rush through my assignment ba.

Unity Secondary School mini-outing

Fri, 04 May 2007 15:25:24 GMT

Today had a fun day, i think. All thanks to sining for organising the mini-outing at vivo city.

Meet up with yongwei at 5pm, but i reached at only 5.20pm because of that stupid 188 so slow. *cries* Then we went around shopping for a while. She brought me around looking at branded goods. *shy* It is actually my first time going into so many branded shops because i never interested in any branded goods and never wanna go into any branded shop. *laughs*

Around 6.30pm, me and yongwei went to the control station to meet the rest. But end up only sining is there. We are quite shock to see sining sense of dressing. Is like, so HOT!!! So different from the girl we see 3years back.

Both stacey and chew wei are already at the cafe. So we went there to meet there. I never know that we are able to chat so much, since im never close to both of them. Both of them said i change to more cheerful, compared to 3years back in school. I was like, "huh?" Then they said im very withdrawn from the class last time, then always very quiet, unlike now.. Can chat more. *laughs*

About 30mins later, sok quan and peiling then come. They are simply taking their own sweet time, but it is alright since im happily chatting with the rest of them as well. *smiles*

We started ordering our dinner. *yoshi* yongwei as usual keep asking me to test her food. She never gave me half of her ice-cream to me. *cries* Dunno wan happy or sad.

Believe it or not, that cafe really very ugly. I mean the food. And yesh a CAFE dun even have plain water. *argh* What kind of cafe is this? Then keep enforcing us to buy drink. *nono* die die oso dun wanna buy drink. *laughs*

After dinner we took like around 15mins to figure how much each of us have to pay for it. *laughs* Poor me and stacey keep on calculating the total cost. Im sure someone paid more than other. But definitely not me. *smiles*

We left the cafe together. But sining and her friend went off together. Oh forget to talk about her friend. So dao and unfriendly. We all tried talking/chatting with her, then she was like, ignoring us. Then hmm, it's our secondary school outing, why did sining ask her along? *wonder* whatever~~

Okay so me, yongwei, stacey, sok quan, peiling, chew wei went wandering around vivocity. But we scroll for around 20mins and decided to go home. But sok quan and peiling said they wanna continue shopping so the rest of us walked to the mrt station to send stacey to take mrt.

While walking to the bus interchange, there having a announcement saying dunno what train service are all terminated. We joking saying that stacey cannot go home liao. Who knows after we said that, chew wei received a call from stacey that she wanna join us to take bus. *laughs* Everyone was sort of "chase" off the mrt station due to unknown reason. *laughs*

On the way back, chew wei are extremely quiet because she had motion sickness. Poor her~~ So me, yongwei and stacey had alot of random chats. So fun. I admit i was very sleepy and tired but i still persist chatting with them because after 3years then we get to meet out for dinner. *laughs*

I really hopes to have more school gathering. I really dunno why.. I used to feel that they look down on me in the past, but after today, no more. I love them.. *laughs*

And im looking forward for 18 may 2007 for dinner with weiting. Another lover whom i know her since primary 2. My best bestie who same class from me from primary 2 till primary 6. And then same school for secondary school. Okay i really miss her sooo much. Hopes to see her soon~~

Now i really regret asking joanne to let me work on the 19may and 20may. How i wish i can make use of that 2days to go shopping with weiting. I really miss her so much. Perhaps i should ask weiting which day free den i go take mc go shopping with her? *laughs*

Gonna go watch tv liao. Tata~~ Happy happy~~

GET ME A BREAK!!!

Tue, 01 May 2007 15:14:12 GMT

I DUN WISH TO MEET ANYONE FOR THE REST OF THE MONTH!!!

3 may 2007, 4 MAY 2007, 19 MAY 2007, 20 MAY 2007!!!

ALL MEETING/OUTING CANCEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FAMILY MEETING OSO CANCEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM GOING TO BE DUMB IN SCHOOL, AT MAC... EVERYWHERE EXCEPT HOME!!! (BECAUSE I DUN WAN MY MAMA WORRIED)

DUN BOTHER TO SMS/MSN ME AS WELL!!!

JUST TREAT ME AS DEAD PLEASE!!!

AND YOU YES YOU! BLOODLY IDIOT BASTARD STOP SMS ME LA DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dun bother to care about me if you think im mad/weird/crazy whatever.
I dun wanna know and i dun bother to know!!
I just wish to live my life peacefully for the rest of the year.
Nothing else..
Please stop bothering me!!!

random ranting~~!!

Tue, 01 May 2007 11:58:22 GMT

Before i start ranting.. I wanna say a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to sining and keiichiro (even though i dunno him real life) *laughs* Hope they enjoy their birthday and may all their wishes come true. Sorry sining for not able to celebrate your birthday with you. (^.^)

Just told karene that forum outing for this month might be cancel. Reasons? Rather not say. *laughs*
Today reaus never come for work. Farhan said he's sick. Im so sad because i love working with him. At least he always give in to me and we are best partner at work. He is sick, too bad lo.

Anyway im getting more sick today. My running nose became worst and my voice turn funny. All my friends at work notice it and ask me dun work so hard, take a break, have a drink => while working. I keep having running nose that it makes me really hard to breathe and talk. And have to carry tissue all around the work place while working. *argh*

Calvin asked whether im feeling alright anot. Hey it is the first time he care for me. Thought bosses are all inhuman? *laughs* Whatever i told him im alright. And he asked me to do simple job like admin stuffs. Unlike joanne and ruiting doing all those shifting of heavy objects. Wahahaha!!

Our store going to have 2 more floor manager. *cheers* Congrat yanxia(15 may) and suzanna(1 june). That mean my chances of quitting gets higher. *laughs*

Yeap after quitting i really have to give up alot of things liao. Like fangirl, shopping etc. I think it will be better if i cancel my debit card so i wun go online and just spend all my savings on idol. In the end become beggar for the next of my final year at poly. *laughs*

I wanna die~~ Can anyone tell me the easiest way to die? Wahaha!!!

ARASHI Concert

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 13:58:18 GMT

Offical news comes out liao. ARASHI holding summer concert from 14 July 2007 till 02 September 2007. How i wish i can go, but it is almost near to impossible. *cries*

Today my whole gang of 7 are almost stiff to death. Why? Cuz when we having that english dunno what class, we went to LT to watch "meeting skill" video. Then 2 class combine to watch the video ma. Then another class came in, 75% of the class is indian. Once my gang of 7 saw them walk in, we have the expression of WHT!!

The conversation if i did not remember wrongly..
Mickey: See? Angeline fainting soon.
Angeline: Yeap i think so too. *roll eyes*
Amy: (use her jacket to cover her nose)
Andrew: Oiiii now is culture class.. Cannot like this..
Yani: *laughs*
Mickey: Do you need a plastic bag? Dun vomit on my head lehx.
Angeline: No, i think i can still endure. (use jacket to cover nose as well)
Mickey: See.. Charlin already fainted..
All: *laughs*
Angeline: Mickey ah. If i vomit dun blame me hor..
Mickey: I wun cuz i understand how u feeling..
Andrew: (says in chinese) They are so smelly.. No wonder the OHT cannot work la.
Angeline: (translate for yani and amy what andrew said)
Amy: True true..
Keng: Cannot say so direct..
Andrew: Im already not direct liao lo. If direct i will say they smell in english.
All: *laughs*

I think i mixed up some of their speech. But it is roughly like this ba. Haha!! But i must admit i really feel like vomit. First due to im sick, second bcuz they really smell. *yuck*

Yeah tomorrow public holiday. Double pay yeah! But i know sure hard hard to work. Im sure im getting more sick after work tomorrow. Haha!! Whatever. Money comes first. XD

Saturday then get mc. Oh ya meeting those girls this friday night. But im not tat close to most of them during my secondary life lehx. But for beehwee and yongwei i will still go. Yeah cuz i miss this 2 bestie.. *smiles*

Before i finish my entry.. I wanan thanks kaoruko for helping me buy arashi phamplet and masaki uchiwa. Must remember to transfer the money to her. God bless me for striking in toto ah! *smiles*

stupid sickness

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 15:11:44 GMT

Had such a hard time swollowing my medicine today. *argh* I already start eating medicine since friday? And now i think my throat getting worst. Now it have get infection i guess? Until like the throat getting hard to even drink water.

I did not feel like eating today. For both lunch and dinner. I skipped breakfast as usual. The moment i look at food, i feel like vomitting. But caihong force me to eat my lunch, stating that if not i will faint when working. Then for dinner, since my mum packed dinner back from grandma house, i dun wish to waste it. So i just force myself to finish eating it. Wanna skipped the soup, but mum said it's good for health, and force me to drink somemore.

Now im bloated like mad. I really feel like vomit out everything that i ate. Just now eat medicine oso feel like vomit. I always need tons of water to swallow my medicine. I finish my 500ml of water just to finish eating 3pills. *imagine* How am i feeling now?

I told mum i wanna tolerate until saturday then go doctor. So i can claim for my medicinal fees and dun have to work for a day. But i know i will collaspe before that. Now i already going to die anytime~~!!

That bloodly liah makes my life worst today. Im already fainting soon around 6pm (which is suppose to be my punch out time). Then she can still slowly chat with people and ask me run counter somemore. I asked atif to do cashier and i do runner cuz i already do not have anymore energy to smile to customers.

Told joanne that i wanna resign after june holiday today. She keeps quiet and pretend never hear it. Then i say to caihong infront of her that im going to resign after june holiday again. She look at me and walk away. Hey arent you the one who says im not fit to be a manager. Now im telling you i wan resign and there you pretending never hear it. *argh*

I really dunno what you all wan me to do. I just wish to be back to my own self, cant it?

Oh ya suddenly reminds me of something which rachel told me during my last day of work. "you are so mad about idol, no wonder your boyfriend dun want you". Well well that time when she told me this, i wasnt really affected by it at all. I dunno why whenever im down, this kind of discouraging things started coming into my head. I knows she says jokingly. But ARGH!!!

Whatever i just wanna say.. The reason me and all my ex break off is.. Yesh partially because of me too focus on idol. But not they ditch me, but is i ditch them!! Everyone first day know me will know im super idol person. If you expect me to change because of you, 100% impossible unless you are masaki-baby or yuichi-baby!! That's all i wanna say.. *smiles*

Time to go vomit liao. God bless me that i recover fast. *cries*

suck and fuck like hell

Sat, 28 Apr 2007 12:00:01 GMT

Super duper piss off at work today. Can i just say MACDONALD SUCK AND FUCK LIKE HELL??!! And by the way i am not a SUPER WOMAN okay? I do believe that super woman will end up dying someday as well. Let's alone im just a normal living girl.

1. Im not married to macdonald.
2. Im not getting high hourly pay rate. (only $5 hourly)
3. Im not a RM so dun expect me to know everything
4. Im not a full timer so dun expect me to know everything
5. Im only having a pair of eyes, a pair of ears, a pair of hands, a pair of legs, one mouth, one brain, one body. PLEASE DUN ASK ME TO DO THIS AND THAT AT THE SAME TIME!!!

By the way customer complain doesnt really affect me. I dun really give a damn if customer complain that why only 1 counter open. If you have crew for me, do i have to run only 1counter? If you did not ask me to teach haz how to do mcflurry, do i have to face my back against counter and do not know that there is long queue. And please la. 2 person queuing consider long queue ah? You told me manager cannot run counter, then customer in with no crew for me that can run counter. What you expect me to do?

Yeah so now i know. There are 2 angeline. 1 crew angeline, 1 manager angeline. So when i wanna run counter, i go change to crew uniform. When i wanna run shift, i go change to manager uniform. Will that make you happier?

I only grumble saying it is none of my business. You oso have to make a fuss about it. Then after scolding me after work, you still have the cheek to ask me "OT" somemore to help you do your thing. Please la. Stop telling me that you come earlier oso haven go home. MY BUSINESS AH? You yourself dun wan go home is not my business at all lo. You compare your salary and my salary. Not as if you give me extra items to eat of pay me OT. DAMMIT!!

Somemore scold me why am i so slow today. You try getting flu and go for work. Then still need to get scolding from big bosses, customers and YOU!! Having headache and running nose, cant even speak well and think well. What else can you expect me to do?

Another things is. That dunno who scald her hand. My business ah? Why are you all so concern about her. When i scald myself with hot oil, anyone cares? I remember last time only cailing-jie help me apply medicine when she see me scald myself. Even when i cut myself in the past, she is the only one at work who sees it, and apply medicine and bandage for me. You all are nothing to me! You all dun even have the condition to be my working mates.

Now the only one who cares for me at work is caihong. Both sisters are good. Too bad cailing-jie not working anymore. Even though caihong can be over-reacted when people bully me, but she is really good. She is the only one who i can trust at work. Others, perhaps all die i oso fucking hack care about it!!

Yesh i do need money, but it doesnt mean that i cant take mc for today. Even if i take mc i still get my pay. Why am i always so good. Sick oso dun wan take mc and go for work. Damn it! Ever since i promote to manager last year, i never take a single mc. Work and slave all my way for work. Why am i doing that??!!

Mama always ask me why am i so workholic towards macdonald. Why i sick oso go work. Why i apply for annual leave i oso go work. Why i take leave for exam i oso go work. WHY??!! I cant understand as well. They treat me like shit but i still try my best to work for them.

Yeap joanne threaten me something. "If you think customer in is not your business, you are not fit to be manager. You can just take off your clothing and return me". Okay then sack me then. Nvm i decided to work till june holiday and resign liao. Im sick and tired of working there liao.

Girls, im not going to japan next year liao.
Girls, im not going to buy anymore idol stuffs liao.
Girls, im sorry that i gives you hopes and crash it.
Girls, the both of you can just go japan yourself.

I really do not wish to work there anymore. I do not wish to slave for anything anymore. For japan, for idol. I just wish to live peacefully through the rest of my poly life.

Okay enough of my ranting. My brain juice cant produce anymore ranting for me liao. Im too sick to think of anything liao. My fever came back again, after work. Think i might rest early today after medicine.

Ya now is worst. Headache, fever, running nose, sore throat, leg injure, hand injure. I dunno im working at mac or working at some boxing area. Always get hurt etc after work

R.I.P. for angeline lai from 1954hours!!!

Slept for 12++hours smiles

Sat, 28 Apr 2007 00:33:07 GMT

I guess i am super duper tiring that i slept for 12hours ~~last night~~ yesterday. I went to sleep around 5pm once i finish chatting with hime-chan, jolie-chan and who else? Cannot remember.

Because of me sleeping, i miss my tv show. *cries* My 7pm Chinese MTV which features Johnny's boys. My 8pm and 9pm show which i everyday die die oso wanna watch. *argh* Never mind. Pointless to be sad now. Have to wake up 4am on monday to catch the show liao. I know in the end in school im gonna fall asleep. Who cares? *smiles*

I am still feeling sick. Yesterday only slight fever. Now having running nose even. *cries* But i still have to go work. *argh* I hate being sick and have to work at the same time. But for money even if i work and drop at mac, i still have to continue working. *cries*

Yesterday jolie-chan finally told me about my debt. I own her around $250. *cries* I feel like crying. I dun care. I felt so stupid to buy both version of KAT-TUN disc. Im gonna sell away one of the version so at least im able to get back around $50? Hopefully it can fetch me that price. *slap myself* Why am i so easily getting psycho in buying both version whereby both are about the same things. *cries*

I felt too sick to think of anything now, even though i had a good night sleep yesterday. Bless me that im able to endure until work finish. Im gonna work slowly and let them scold me all they wants. I f**** hack care about them. *smiles*

weird weird

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 14:11:53 GMT

Today in the morning at 10am, i received 3 smses. *laughs*

First is some sort of forwards sms from amy. She love forwards interesting sms to me, or perhaps everyone. *smiles*

Second is caihong inform me that she have return back to singapore. Yeap she went to china for 2weeks. Then i meet up with around 12noon because she have some gift for me. Yeap a wallet which i will never use and a sony earphone. Yeah i love that earphone so much but cant bear to abandon my current ones. Therefore i gave that earphone to my brother who have been using my lousy earphone for his PSP for the past 2months. *laughs* When i pass it to him, he's so happy that he has a new earphone which totally suit his PSP. Cuz both is white and is SONY brand. *smiles*

Third is nelle kun-chan asking me what happen to me. She said my hidden post for my LJ is weird. Is it weird? I dun really think so. At least what she see inside is the real me? *laughs* Whatever. Let she see the evil side of me then. Muhahaha!!

In the afternoon time, i went IMM with my mum and sis. *argh* She promise to buy me DVD player in the past. But now says want me to pay half of the price since i earn quite a sum at my uncle's company. *cries* Hey im returning around half my sum to you i where got money. *sigh* In the end i still lost debating since she keep enforcing she is not working now and got no money.

No choice lo. At least pay half is better than pay full sum. But... $100 lehx.. *cries* Can buy 2 japanese album liao. Never mind. Maybe i bug my papa pay the another half for me. Wahahaha! Each pay half then i no need pay liao yeah! Bug bug bug! That is what im good at, i think. *smiles*

And what? I so hard every morning change so many buses to school because i wanna save $40 for japan next year. Then she said she wanna reduce the transport fee monthly. Instead of giving usual $100, she's going to give me onli $50 which is just right for buying bus concession. *cries* Unfair. If that is the case, i rather from the start i just take mrt to school. At least can sleep lo. No need so hard change so many buses every morning and after school. *sigh*

Unfair unfair unfair. She keeps saying im so different from my bro. She keeps saying i always anyhow spend money. She keeps saying i never save my salary. But hey. I spend what i earn only lo. And what i earn is hardly enough for me to survive in school. My bro got allowance weekly, me lehx? Have to use my own salary for allowance. You only give me transport fee and now you wanna reduce it somemore. *cries*

Work less you oso nag, work more you oso nag. I really dunno what to say about you. *sigh*

Rabu rabu school?? pout

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 13:15:38 GMT

Today almost overslept. Thanks to hime-chan for sms me. I was awaken due to my super long sms tones. *laughs* If she did not sms me in the morning, i guess i will not have enough time to bath, eat, watch tv. Wahaha!!

Reached school quite early? At least it is the first time i did not late for continuous 2days. *cheers* But hor, im half asleep in that lecture. Cannot concentrate on study as usual. End up sms so many people at one go? Let me count. Around 5peoples? Or more? Cant remember. *laughs*

Then after 2 subject's lecture, alamak is that .aspnet tutorial. *yawn* That stupid tutor said need to sit according to register number. *pout* Why? Then i cant sit with amy and yani. *sad sad* Have to sit with the next class dunno who. Even have a gap in between me and jason & andrew. *cries*

Whatever ba. After that 2hours tutorial, is 1hour break before OTCM lecture starts. Went to IT canteen because that is the only canteen that has air-con. *laughs* I was so tempted to eat whenever i sit there waiting for class. In the end had 1 dessert and 1 roti prata in short short half an hour.

Oh yesh! So happy. OTCM lecturer said no tutorial for the first 2weeks. And then ne. Only 4lectures for the whole semester (including this week). I am offically off for every thursday. So happy! No need pon lecture yet have off. *cheers* Out of sudden feel life in school so good. *grin*

Was telling hime-chan that i wanted to shift back to only arashi and KAT-TUN only. Then she said she gonna make my life hard with DBSK. *laughs* But never mind la, since she is going to lend me DBSK stuffs while i lend her my arashi stuffs. Lalala! As long as i will not be crazy over DBSK, i am alrite with it.

Gosh my digimon hor.. Die die die. Now so hard to beat the boss. Damn damn. Hehehe! I wanna quickly win and go into next stage. *yeah*

School timetable

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 13:08:29 GMT

Haha i think i am MAD! Added 2 entry at one go. Yeap one of the entry dun feel like letting people see it. Whoever not my friend are not allow to read. (^.^)

Okay today in school, felt so loved by amy and yani again. Hehe! They are so good! I love them, and miss them so much. *muackx*

For almost all lessons, me and amy keep having those half-asleep looks. WAHAHA! The both of us are really so sleepy and i guess nothing really goes into our brain. But who cares? Today is just a welcome day? Lalala! Everyone holiday mood. *laughs*

Amy accompany me for my timetable changing. She is truely a friend. I am happy for yani cuz her appeal for itech (elective) is successful. *yeah* And congrat me too. My appeal for changing from thursday to friday is successful as well. *happy* Now i do not need to go school on thursday. Can request for work liao. *laughs*

Oh yeah. Decided not to plan anymore forum outing for the time being. Dun ask me anything about the outing. And dun ask me why. Thank ah! *cheers*

Okay dunno wan write what oso. Now i will post happy thing here only. *cheers*

i am NOT alright

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 13:26:19 GMT

Today work was bad, super bad like yesterday. I am really being affected by what happen yesterday and today. I do not know why, but i think.. I am suffering mild depression now? Hmmmm..

I really feel like crying when i work half-way. Keep getting scolded out for no reason. *cries* I was in bad mood that i started throwing my temper a little. My closer friends like reaus, yanxia, billy keep asking me to relax myself. They can see that i might just cry off anytime.

I really wonder, what the fuck am i doing so much when im getting such a little pay? Need to memories so many things. You do not get praise if you get it right, but will only get fuck when you get it wrong. Then somemore, you do not get OT charges and have to do alot of things even when you are working for FREE!!

Cmon i can choose not to help and just leave when time is up. I can hack care about the shift and just close my cashsheet once it's 1.5hour before the time i finish work. But hey, i am being kind to you by closing cashsheet only around 0.5hours before the time i finish work. And then i OT for FREE for another 2hours and you expect me to stay for another 2hours to help you do FREE!! *argh*

I am very disappointed with this store. I believe i am a good worker but you do not treasure me. I always love this job so much even though i tend to grumble about those stupid people at work. But i still love my job because it gave me a sense of belonging. It is my first job since i am 14 years old.

-blenx- shall not talk about that stupid thinga anymore. *sigh*

Okay in the end they did cheer me up. Those attachment crew says i am cute. Whether it is true or fake, i am still happy. I will just treat it as true ba. Hehehe! Actually people at work always says i am cute. I do not know why oso. I am happy i am happy. YEAH HAPPY HAPPY!!

Feeling so sleepy now. Might sleep early at 10pm after my tv show. Good luck for my first day of new semester tomorrow. Oh ya before i sleep, must find my contact lense out first. Hehehe!!

My Collections of JE stuffs

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 14:28:06 GMT

I was bored. And my KAT-TUN things have been lying around my room for the last few weeks. Before jolie-chan passes me the albums and singles of KAT-TUN and NEWS, i guess i should dig some places to wait for those releases to arrive. *laughs*

ARASHI stuffs. The plastic on the right is all photos and uchiwa and oppsss i did not able to take my calendar into it as well. *laughs*
Anyway first column is all their singles and album. Second column is all their vcd and dvd. The more towards right are all their photobooks, photos, uchiwa (only masaki).

JE stuffs. First column is V6 singles/album which i brought in the past. Second column is KinKi Kids stuffs. Last row is mixtures of JE stuffs.

KAT-TUN and NEWS stuffs. *laughs* So far only have a few of kat-tun stuffs because my orders are not here yet. All the plastic bags on the right is all my photos and laminated poster of NEWS and kat-tun. Hehehe!! Of course and those stickers.

Today work was so tiring. First day of MFY system. I do not know about the new rules. Neither nor reaus-san. Yesh end up being scolded by big bosses like nobody's business. I really feel like throwing my nametag at them and say i want resign. *angry* Wonder if i sell all my collections, will it last me till i finish my poly? *think*

You are so fake! So what if you are the boss. Act good infront of us and scolded joanne and in the end joanne came to scold us. What is the use. I would really rather you come straight to my face and scold me. Instead of hinting so loudly behind my back. *argh* You are not a man. No wonder your wife wan divorce you? *laughs* Best wishes to your new wife then. *grin*

Im feeling so sleepy now. *yawn* I hate school open. *sigh*

Oh ya well.. I guess i should really stop being fangirl liao. While i am tidying up my JE stuffs, i felt heart ache. Why did i spend so much money on it. *argh* Perhaps what my mum said is right. If i never idol on this kind of things, my bank will be full. *cries* What can i do now? Someday, someday i will really force myself to like them and jus sell everything away. *yeah*

And yeap. ARASHI stuffs only have masaki-baby the most. KAT-TUN stuffs only have yuichi-baby the most. NEWS stuffs only have keiichiro-baby the most. I guess i am really so bias upon certain members in each groups. *laugh* I believe i have more but dunno where i squeeze it at. *laughs*

Dying~~ Last day of work!!

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 18:27:19 GMT

I guess i almost end up dying. Yeap today is such a tiring day for me. *cries*

I am tired, but i still wanna write my entry for today. Well well i walked in super slow pace to office today. While walking i keep glancing around the area. The first time i walked, i was scare. The last time i walked, i am sad. *sigh* Perhaps i am too emotional or what, i really feel so sad about last day.

Once i reached the office, i sit at my chair and started looking around. I look at the place where i once sit. I missed the place. I am sure i will. But will sad be of any help?

Went for lunch with rachel and siewhua. Went amoy for lunch. They told me quite a number of gossip. Actually thos gossip i knows long ago. *laughs* But who really cares? Gossip is what i hate most. I would rather you come straight to my face and tell me what you dislike/hate about me. *peace*

After work, i walked out of the office slowly. I tried to hold my tears. At certain times during work, i feel like crying. Due to last day of work. I really do not wish to leave that place but.. *cries and dies*

Oh yeah. My new forum, almost done? Nope it is not. But at least i finish messy copy and paste ohno, sho, aiba from old forum to new forum. Tiring man. I wanted to finish all, but i will really die off during tml work.

Yesh gonna go sleep now. If not i will faint during work.

My heart getting weaker and weaker. Some handsome guy please come and give me a kiss to revive me. XD

Thank you jolie and karene

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 04:32:17 GMT

I wanna express my greatest thank you to both jolie-chan and karene-chan.

I lost my photocards together with my ezlink card and debit card. The both of them specially go print and laminate for me tons of masaki-baby photocards. I was really too touch for words at that moment.

Thank you thank you thank you.

YEAH! Got people pamper me with masaki-baby goodies. *smiles*

Maybe tonight if got time then i take a picture and post it up. Oh ya and our forum outing last saturday. The photos as well. Muhahaha!

Sad sad

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 19:05:44 GMT

Today should be happy. Should be very happy. Because i finally get to meet up with jolie, karene, deirdre(1st time) and yen(1st time). And furthermore we going for ktv together, which i love singing so much. But.. BUT!!!

Actually in between singing session i was already down. I have no idea why but recently i will be down out of sudden. Today down again. Then i tried hard not to be seen as "down". I dunno im successful or not. But when we start singing, dancing and videoing arashi - A.RA.SHI song, i got so genki again. Yesh really so genki!!

After singing, we are all hungry so we went to PS macdonald. When we are about to buy our food, i tried to seach for my ezlink card. I even dig out everything oso cant find. Damn it! Im not really bother about the ezlink card or my debit card. These 2 cards can be easily replace with $10 each. But hor. My masaki and kat-tun photocard. Damn it!

Those living in singapore should know it is quite hard to buy japanese idol things here. I brought the last piece of both photocard. Yet i lost it! And i will never be able to find it again. I really got so affected that i know everyone worried for me. I tried to hold my tears, i tried very hard. And i tried to be super duper normal by chatting and joking with them. But they know i am not really happy. They know i am sad.

Yesh i am very sad! I really feel like hiding in the toilet and cry. I really wish to! But if i cry, once i cry, i will cry for an hour or so. I do not want them to worry for me even worst. But i can see that both karene and jolie worried for me alot. They care alot for me. I always do wish people care for me, yes they are there for me when i need them. They tried hard not to bring up the matter to avoid me getting sad. I know that, but i just unable to control my emotion.

I know very well it is nothing important but.. But.. I really get affected greatly. I really got attitude when sitting at cine level 9. I never talk alot. Karene sms me ask if im arite. I dunno why but i think my mental got more problem recently. Must i really resort to cutting myself then i will feel better? Or eating tons of pills to make myself feel dizzy then i will feel better??

I really do not wish to go back to my old life. The reason i hate guys now is because THEY MAKE ME FEEL TAT HURTING MYSELF THEN I WILL FEEL BETTER!! I hate guys. All guys suck! Did i ever say i got phobia for guys now? Even though i feel genki when looking at IDOL, but idol is still idol. Im sure when i see them face to face i will have phobia as well.

Damn it! I think one of the lin jun jie song suit me. Dunno what hate present, hate past, hate future. Yesh i hate myself and i wish i can just die off. That is what im wishing for, for the past 5years? XD At least once u die no worries anymore. But like what i promise my mum, never do silly things again. I will honor my promise no matter what. *sigh*

Busy Week!

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 04:51:28 GMT

This week, so busy!! OMG!!

Firstly im still arranging for the moderators/admins meet-up on this coming saturday. Everyone still cannot confirm the time and place. Hmm!!
Secondly im meeting hime-chan and NELLE for some random things. LOL!
Thirdly have to write proposal for some thingy, which is still a secret.
Fourthly have to prepare for school liao. (catch my playful emotions) Have to go back study mood. I hate school! I have not earn enough yet!!

However despite busy im genki as well. LOL!

Firstly i am able to have fun with my moderators/admins this saturday. (laughs)
Secondly i am able to buy yuichi baby things from hime-chan.
Thirdly if i write a good proposal then my wish will come true. =)
Fourthly get to know a website which can subsidise singaporean to japan for diploma studies. LOL! But i guess i can apply only next year, since if i apply this year it gonna crash with my YEAR3.2. I dun wanna waste my parent money on my school fees.

Should be very busy with my YEAR2.2 once school starts. Gonna plan my time nicely so i can continue with my fangirl life. LOL! Oh ya and must do revision for my japanese everynight? Or perhaps everyday on train on the way home. (smiles)

kiss & bed scene

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 15:42:08 GMT

Define kiss scene.
Define bed scene.
Can someone enlighten me why must he be the one out of 5 member to do the kiss & bed scene in the movie?

As per normal i get affected strongly. I really cant believe my own eyes when i chance upon kiss scene. When karene-chan asked for more detail, "bed scene" words are even out. Why Why Why?

What i hate most i finally here. I still wanna order and watch the movie. But im gonna watch the DVD in my own room with my lappy when it release. I know im gonna cry till my eyes sore when watching him having kiss and bed scene.

Kiss is already a bad attacked for me, and now? BED SCENE EVEN! I know im dying soon. Im gonna cry myself to death. Now just hearing the news im already crying, i cant imagine what to do when i watch the movie. Haix!

Please tell me it is not true.
Please tell me the news is wrong.
Please tell me the kisser is not him.
Please tell me that i should stop liking him to prevent myself being hurt!

I know it must be heaven wanting him to take revenge on me. Whatever. Im gonna play with my DS till i drop today since i know i wun be able to fall asleep. Haix!

Life suck isnt it? =)

thanks karene for everything!!

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 01:23:45 GMT

Actually feel like giving up on NEWS cuz of some reasons.

Im bored at home at night. Cant get to sleep. Waiting for my lappy to finish converting some videos. So i open my amazon box (finally) and took out may issue of mjoyo.

First page is already NEWS lo (if i did not remember wrongly). So i flip slowly to see the pictures of the mag this time round. Hmm keiichiro-san is really so cute. I dunno for what reason, i dun find ryo irritating anymore. He appear to be neutral out of the blue last night.

Continue flipping.. KAT-TUN. WOW! My yuichi-san is still so cute. I keep flipping in between yuichi-san and keiichiro picture page, their hairstyle really look somewhat similar. Just that one got dye the hair, one did not. LOL! Whatever? XD

Then flip again. K8. I look over and over again (only pictures not words) i cant find ryo. LOL! I really couldnt remember his look at all in K8. Reason? Not sure oso. I can only recongise hina there, cuz stella-chan always bomb me with him whenever she is online MSN. LOL!

By the way i wanna thanks karene-chan for your comfort last night. While waiting for my class to start i was really feeling very depressed. Thanks for chatting with me over the phone. Thanks for making me feel so great that i still have a bunch of good friends around me.

Im that kind of attitude person. I know lot of people doesnt like me. Whenever i encounter problem, i have nobody to turn to. karene-chan and jolie-chan are the only rare that i can call/sms when im down. Grumbling about what happening. Oh ya NELLE-chan oso, even though sometimes we have conflict after that. LoL!

Thanks all of you for your support. =)

Im sorry. Im really am..

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 09:41:45 GMT

sad Sad SAD!!!

Aiyo why my stupid big mouth, or my stupid big hand? Nono should be my stupid big brain always spout the wrong thing out. Why must i make her angry WHY?!!!

I should just keep quiet on who i dun really like. Just be neutral about it? WTH?! Why am i so stupid?

I swear i dun quite like ryo cuz he is from K8. But i never say i hate him. But why must i say he is my least fav in news? I should just say he is not my fav. Erm wait a minute. Isnt it the same? Haix!

Whatever la! Zipped up my brain. I dun wanna care about K8 and news liao. So i wun like or dislike any member from it. Whatever la! -heart dead- Gonna vomit blood now!!

Just get to know a new friend. Now lost her in just a day time? Yesh i must be the most super human in the world to make people hate me in such a short time.

Im afraid that people angry over me. I hate my own attitude as well. But sometimes i really cant control. Haix! Why? *slap myself* Feel like crying now. Really feel like it! Im in no mood to work. Im in no mood to go japanese class later (but i have to)! *sigh*

She seems to block me over MSN. I smsed her she oso dun reply me. Im sorry, im really sorry. I didnt mean it! Sigh!!! *cries* What must i do to apologize for my mistake? I really dun wan anyone to hate me, especially someone who has the same interest as well.

Last time is haruka.
Follow by NELLE.
Follow by karene.
Follow by jolie.
Follow by astrid.

Yesh im super woman! Hate me la hate me la! Dun talk to me better. Im a bad fangirl. I always change my fav. idol. I critisize those which i dun like. Im always like this. NOTHING SEEMS TO MAKE ME CHANGE!!! Go to hell angel! Everyone in this world hate you! You are not worthly to stay in this planet. Go outer space where there are nobody there so you will not offend anyone. Isnt it better for ya? Right angel? RIGHT?????!!!!

I SWEAR THE HUMAN I HATE MOST IN THIS WORLD IS MYSELF, ANGELINE LAI!!! GO TO HELL ANGELINE LAI!!! I HATE YOU TO CORE LA!!!

Fun chatting with NELLE

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 01:36:29 GMT

Chatted over the phone with NELLE-chan for around 1hour and 30mins. Wow! We chatted for so long without noticing the time until it reaches aorund 11pm? LOL!! When i finish the call, i went back to the living room to bring back my lappy which i have left previously. My mum did not nag at me for chatting over the call. Instead.. Hmmmm.....

Mother: Got new boyfriend liao ah?
Me: No ah. Why?
Mother: Chat so long over the call. Must be your new boyfriend.
Me: No! Im chatting with a girl!
Mother: No need to lie.
Me: Im not lying!!
Mother: *sigh* (insist that i have new boyfriend)
Me: Okay im chatting with my new boyfriend. She is a girl but she is my boyfriend.
Mother: *suspicious looks*
Me: Really la! She is my boyfriend then! If you think im interested in girl!
Mother: (still that kind of weird looks)
Me: (walk into the room laughing)

I guess she still thinks that the one im chatting with is my boyfriend. Please lo. I know i dislike all the guys beside me, but i still drool over japanese cute guys over TV show lo. At least im not to the extend of being a lesbian. Im still not interested in girl! Im normal!! !@&*!%@&!%

I went back to the room and sms NELLE that my mum thought im chatting over the phone with my new "boyfriend". NELLE said if is boyfriend, will we be chatting abotu JE? LOL! The problem is my mum dunno what is JE etc etc. All idol is just IDOL to her. And she cant recongise the name of my idol as well. Furthermore we are chatting in english. And she cant understand english. LOL! Let her continue mistaken me ba. Lalalala!! XD

In the end we did a conclusion. I mean me and NELLE. Since we have the same taste, we should click quite well? LOL! We wun be snatching over anything like before. We are young adult no use fighting over small thing? LOL! Opppss really sound like a boyfriend liao. Haha!

Today japanese class again. So boring. At least i wish the class can be more interesting. Good luck for me? XD

give up?!

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 09:06:19 GMT

Now i know the reason why NELLE-chan was shock when i said i like keiichiro from NEWS. She like him too. At least she is buying his things. T_T

Whatever? My boss will be away for trip for 2weeks? Once he step out of the office today, Muhahaha! THe redemption team happily party? LOL! Im happy oso so i can happily lucky MSN my time off work.

Im sleepy now. Really sleepy despite i slept quite early last night. I have decided not to snatch with NELLE-chan for keiichiro pictures. I dun wan her to hate me. XD

Perhaps i might just cancel my order for NEWS thingy i ordered from HMVJapan. I will sink further in if i gotten their thing. And in the end i will just end up snatching goodies from NELLE-chan haha!!

Something happy oso. Haha! astrid-chan said the way i react is the same as yuichi-baby. Well! I remember karene-chan said the way i react is the same as masaki-baby. In conclusion i have the same reaction/personality/thinking as both yuichi-baby & masaki-baby. Yeah!! Indeed a super happy thing for me to get super duper genki? XD XD XD

Oh ya, that means that the type of guy i like is the same as well!!! Must be super genki. Able to cheer people up always. Good heart. ~~Love/have dogs.~~ Innocent looks. Humble. Mad/crazy. Cool. Etc etc etc!!

Bored.. Really bored!!!

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 03:01:45 GMT

Im bored, really bored. No friend at work, no friend online, no friend to chat with. *sigh* Am i really that hard to interact with? LOL!

Oh did i say i ordered NEWS calendar on the last entry? Oh yesh. I dunno why oso.. Perhaps i might cancel the order if i find myself dun really like them that much. Haha! Im always very ficky minded de. Change my decision every now and then. Im not scare of what, just scare that i no money pay onli. And scare that if i buy but i dun like them in future i will regret later on. If i dun buy but i like them in future, i will regret oso. Lalala! Whatever! Must re-calculate my pay liao. LOL!

And gosh need to calculate my expenses when going japan as well. 60% might cancel NEWS thingy. I dun really think i like koiichiro that much? I mean i like the way he look, his education etc. But i really wonder what other talent he has? Haha! They still look a little like small kid to me, even though everyone of them are actually OLDER than me. XD

I guess i really piss karene-chan and jolie-chan off last night. Im around 70% out of arashi liao? Perhaps? Im not sure myself as well. But i must make sure something. Fangirling of so many groups should last only during my school holiday. When school starts equal no earn money equal no money buy goodies. So lalalala!